Dying to be Right

When the ego desires to be heard it will hijack every movement for joining to destroy all possibility of connection with the Truth. It rails against the Light and the gentle love that is offered to prove its theory of hatred and harm.

It is infuriated by not being acknowledged and will viciously destroy all memories of Home in dying to be right…

It doesn’t care what it destroys, what kindly cultivated pastures it slashes and burns. It’s only interested in destruction and death and being in control of pain, blame and shame. It is a guilt trip!

Yet there is another Voice that stands “idly by” in the egos eyes. Certain of a happy outcome for all. Unflustered and unfailing in Trust, steadfast in Faith and faultless in Seeing Innocence.

“Forgiveness, on the other hand, is still, and quietly does nothing.”

It is this perceived “inaction” that so offends the ego, being totally dependent on the mechanism of “more.” Hamster wheeling into oblivion, it demands bigger, better, faster, more. Although more of what will satisfy it does not know. Because no-thing will. It is merely a self propelling mechanism—a dynamo of opposition to “what is.”

Dying to be right – seeing crucifixion everywhere!

“Forgiveness, on the other hand, is still, and quietly does nothing. It offends no aspect of reality, nor seeks to twist it to appearances it likes. It merely looks, and waits, and judges not. He who would not forgive must judge, for he must justify his failure to forgive. But he who would forgive himself must learn to welcome truth exactly as it is.” A Course in Miracles (W-pII.1.4.)

The quote attributed to Jesus on the cross, “Forgive them O Father for they know not what they do.” This seeming plea correctly seen is a form of charity overlooking the error entirely. “God does not forgive because He has never condemned.” ACIM (W-pI.46.1)

The demand to have a mistake vindicated as sin is the desire to maintain guilt. The most surprising avenue that this comes from is self blame. “You may wonder why it is so crucial that you look upon your hatred and realize its full extent.” ACIM quote (T-13.III.1)

“You may also think that it would be easy enough for the Holy Spirit to show it to you, and to dispel it without the need for you to raise it to awareness yourself. Yet there is one more obstacle you have interposed between yourself and the Atonement. We have said that no one will countenance fear if he recognizes it.

Yet in your disordered state of mind you are not afraid of fear. You do not like it, but it is not your desire to attack that really frightens you. You are not seriously disturbed by your hostility.

crucifixion depiction

The Last Useless Journey

You keep it hidden because you are more afraid of what it covers. You could look even upon the ego’s darkest cornerstone without fear if you did not believe that, without the ego, you would find within yourself something you fear even more. You are not really afraid of crucifixion. Your real terror is of redemption.A Course in Miracles (T-13.III.1.2)

“In honesty, is it not harder for you to say “I love” than “I hate”? You associate love with weakness and hatred with strength, and your own real power seems to you as your real weakness. For you could not control your joyous response to the call of love if you heard it, and the whole world you thought you made would vanish. The Holy Spirit, then, seems to be attacking your fortress, for you would shut out God, and He does not will to be excluded.” ACIM (T-13.III.3)

“You can accept insanity because you made it, but you cannot accept love because you did not. You would rather be a slave of the crucifixion than a Son of God in redemption. Your individual death seems more valuable than your living oneness, for what is given you is not so dear as what you made. You are more afraid of God than of the ego, and love cannot enter where it is not welcome. But hatred can, for it enters of its own volition and cares not for yours.” ACIM quote (T-13.III.5)

“And there must be condemnation before forgiveness is necessary. Forgiveness is the great need of this world, but that is because it is a world of illusions.” A Course in Miracles (W-pI.46.1.2)

“You often dismiss it more readily than you dismiss the ego’s thought system. To some extent, then, you must believe that by not learning the course you are protecting yourself. And you do not realize that it is only your guiltlessness that can protect you.” ACIM (T-13.II.8)

Lesson 134: “Let me perceive forgiveness as it is.”

When I see I am not the one who condemns (myself or other) then I am also no longer the one who needs to offer forgiveness (to myself or other.) I am released from “forgiveness to destroy” and freed to Accept the atonement for mySelf. “I need do nothing” becomes a willing witness state.

Better to be Forgiven than a forgiver!

The simplicity of Salvation is that it has already occurred.
Seeing that everything is already Forgiven is my function.

The long road of interpersonal forgiveness.


~ Forgiveness to Destroy ~

“All forms forgiveness takes that do not lead away from anger, condemnation and comparisons of every kind are death.” Song of Prayer pamphlet (S-2.II.8:1)

In A Course in Miracles, Chapter 30 – VI. “The Justification for Forgiveness”
Jesus clarifies that anger is not wrong, but that we delude ourselves when we justify it.

“Anger is never justified. Attack has no foundation. It is here escape from fear begins, and will be made complete. Here is the real world given in exchange for dreams of terror. For it is on this forgiveness rests, and is but natural. You are not asked to offer pardon where attack is due, and would be justified. For that would mean that you forgive a sin by overlooking what is really there. This is not pardon. For it would assume that, by responding in a way which is not justified, your pardon will become the answer to attack that has been made. And thus is pardon inappropriate, by being granted where it is not due.” A Course in Miracles (T-30.VI.1)

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